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A fetish for mystery July 14, 2008

Filed under: life,personal,wall of the wierd — hannaherika @ 1:07 pm

As a child I’ve been meticulously curious. Up to now I guess I still am… Mystery… the very word sends chills down my spine. Call it fetish as you may but I just sense this certain kind of pull. My attraction for mystery has brought me new knowledge and truth which always brings me… satisfaction!



Optimist’s Creed June 28, 2008

Filed under: career,friends,life — hannaherika @ 11:33 am
photo taken from diversityjobs.com
The Optimist’s Creed
by C.D. Larson

Talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person you meet.

To make all your friends feel that there is something in them.
To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true.
To think only of the best, and expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own.
To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and give every living creature you meet a smile.
To give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.
Got this from a my dear dear friend who has Lupus. We were always wondering why she’s always sick. Only this year did she know she had Lupus. Despite her fragile condition she remains radiant and optimistic.
I often get hugely affected by small problems. This friend of mine reminded me of what should be. Her smile and optimism got through me. So they say… “Smiling is Contagious.” The same is true with Optimism.

“Lupus: A chronic inflammatory condition caused by an autoimmune disease. An autoimmune disease occurs when the body’s tissues are attacked by its own immune system. Patients with lupus have unusual antibodies in their blood that are targeted against their own body tissues.”

– medterms.com

Random Answers June 27, 2008

Filed under: life,personal,random questions — hannaherika @ 11:25 am

It’s friday night and my friend Roxanne canceled our movie night. I would have wanted to watch “Wanted” starring Angelina Jolie. But, Roxy has a flight to Bacolod (our hometown) and Vinz is in California right now. So, I’m stuck at home… bored… and downloading stuff. While waiting, I got this from a friend and I think it’s fun to like answer them. You guys if you are bloggers too, you could copy and paste these questions and answer them yourself. So that readers might have fun knowing you. Calling out Praveen Deepak!

1. Is it difficult for you to look into someone’s eyes when you are talking to them?
It depends who this person iz… probably if I feel like I’m blushing, I’d have to hide my face from the person I’m talking to. but I usually do on a normal conversation it is just polite! I smile too =)

2. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You get enough time to make ONE phone call. Who would you call?
My lawyer!

3. You have to choose between your significant other and your best friend, who do you choose?
Gosh… okay how do I answer this… Since all of my best friends have significant others already, they would understand that I’d have to choose my own significant other.. Peace bestybuddies!

4.You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live..
(A) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die?
Yes, transparency is one of the valuable lessons I learned from my job. They should know and it’s only fair to them, especially your loved ones. So that they would have the time to prepare too.

(B) What do you do with your remaining days?

(C) Would you be afraid?
Not afraid to die.. I’m more afraid of the “how” do I die factor. I hope it would not be painful and ugly. I want to stay pretty when I die.

5. You can have one of the following two things: trust or love?
Trust! with this comes love too. I guess. =)

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
Save the dog!!! OMG dog lover here! I couldn’t care more about work. And besides, my boss knows I’m always early!

7. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
Where do I begin… Greece is top priority. I don’t know why.. Then I met new friends in Malaysia lately so I’d go there too. I’d do a whole Eurotrip! watch F1 races.. go to Finland… Go to UK and meet a friend there and meet the Spicegirls! Monaco and be at Amber Lounge, well I love New York! I wanna go to Africa too! even to Alaska! man… Egypt for the pyramids.. Dubai for the palm island and India for Taj Mahal raaah!!!! Travel addict!

8. Think of the last person who you really knew that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give one year of your life. Is it okay for you?
My dad… died when I was 3 years old… I’d love to get to know him coz I never really remembered much when I was three…

9. Are you the kind of person that you would want to have as a friend?
I don’t really know… Two of me is bad, I want someone opposite as a friend. opposite attracts yeah. hehe. but yeah, I’m a loyal friend!

10. Does love = sex?
not exactly! love = many other things besides sex but hmmm… I guess the right equation is Love x Passion = Sex (sex just a product) nyahaha but they don’t absolutely equate each to each other.

11. One of your best friend dies, what would you do?
give her a tribute… and cry… and cry… and pray… and I would’nt sleep alone for 9 days… I’m afraid she might visit me or something.. scared of ghosts.. even if it’s you besty huhuhu.. You know me please don’t… “~

12. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt?
yesterday. with my boss (nyah! the guts of me)

13. What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you hate them?
hate them…

14. What do you think would be the last thing for you to give up on?
give up on? pretty vague question. how bout air? lol.. hehe cant really think much of anythin. I usually don’t give up easily. Makulit ako

15. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you love them?
When my mother gave me money for my trip to Sing. =) hehehe What would I do without her…?

16. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would you do?
Go to med school.. Now’s too late for me to do that. =)

17. Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear a noise. What do you do?
I am a calm person. I usually don’t move when I sense something. This gives me time to keep my senses alert. HOLY FUDGE!!!!! did you say “DARK NIGHT” waaah! run! Anything.. anything at all…not just the dark!!!

18. Would you give a stranger CPR if they were dying?
Of course! I’m a doctor-wannabe.. It’s my chance to save a life!

19. Are you old-fashioned?
Nada! Not even… well I guess in some ways.. But my views are not black and white… I see gray.. and other colors… =)

20. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a heartbreak or to never have loved?
To love even if I know my heart will be broken. Just experiencing love is worth the heartbreak sometimes. I may be a hopeless romantic and I might sometimes dream of fairytales…. but i just know… You haven’t lived if you have not loved… and it is the most mysterious journey you will want to experience no matter what…


Depression June 6, 2008

Filed under: life,personal — hannaherika @ 1:16 pm

Depression: An illness that involves the body, mood, and thoughts, that affects the way a person eats and sleeps, the way one feels about oneself, and the way one thinks about things.

Major depression causes a combination of symptoms that interfere with the ability to work, study, sleep, eat, and enjoy once pleasurable activities.

– medterms.com

I looked into the scientific definition of depression to know if I have one right now. Based above, I think I have a light depression. I don’t know why and I could not explain. There are just some days where I feel this way.

I usually feel light about everything even if all is not well. I think positive always and I drive passion for other people lacking it. But the thing is, sometimes I think I just have to let go and feel the whole honesty of my true emotions.

Yes, today I felt it all. Not knowing the reason or cause I just felt heavy, incomplete and alone. My morning started with me having a follow-up appointment with my doctor about my breast surgery. I just felt anxious about the scar I’m going to have because my would didn’t heal beautifully. Afternoon came and still I was well.

Then, I looked into the mirror and I just felt unusually ugly. I sat down by my bed and I felt uncomfortable with my tight jeans. Then I looked at my skin and I just don’t like its texture. Suddenly, all that I could think of was the negativity.

I don’t know how to heal myself now. I tried to blog to express my feelings to make it all go away. I am not expressive of my emotions and I don’t know the best outlet for it. Sometimes, I want to be an actress. I could enact the life of a fictional or true character. Then, If I could relate with the role, I could act naturally and express my true feelings without them knowing that it’s not just acting, but it is me.


Life’s Equations May 20, 2008

Filed under: life — hannaherika @ 12:44 am

I checked out my corporate e-mails and noticed that I received one from a friend who is resigning effectively today in our company.

His message just struck me and I would like to share with you his known equation about life.




If you really think about it, it’s true.

Sayonnara Mark! See you along the streets of Ayala ave. May you have a new life with a new dream in your new job.